My name's Sean Carr. I'm originally from Olean, NY, which is a small city nestled in the northern range of the Allegany mountains. I now live in the environmental wasteland that is Wilmington, NC. I just graduated from UNCW with a major in Film and a double minor in Religion and Creative Writing. For the time being I'm working for a year taking a break before gradschool(hopefully). I'd like to make films about things that are important, the environment, social issues, and hey, maybe some not so serious stuff too. I love the outdoors, riding my bike, reading good books, and just about anything travel related. I'm just an all around pretty cool mothertrucker.
Well its 9am, and I’ve got class from 12-9pm today. I really am starting to hate class. Seems like I have no time for anything else. When I’m not in class I’m either doing homework, or if it’s the weekend I’m shooting on DV for class projects. I haven’t had a chance to go camping or hiking in a LONG time. It’s starting to give me cabin fever. I need to get out of Wilmington and into the hills. I was born and raised in the Allegany mountains on the NY/PA border. Flat land will make any “highlander” crazy. I’ve done three years of it too. I always think its funny how people love to come to the beach like it’s some precious jewel. There must not be any other places that have water meeting earth like say, a lake, anyway… I was like that once, long hair, shell necklace, Jack Johnson in my cd player and visions of a sandy paradise where all my problems would fade away. Oh how I was wrong. The only thing Wilmington has given me is an overpriced education(something in the order of 65 grand for three years, not including my first year at Albany), and a hatred for the high valued materialism that seems to go hand in hand with beach towns. Anymore, it’s condos and strip malls, oh and I can’t forget the BMW’s and Land Rovers. With the stress of graduation coming soon, I’m losing it I think. I keep thinking that if this is how I feel about Wilmington a growing city of 100,000, how am I going to feel if I have to move to LA or New York. Quite honestly I don’t want to do either of those. Let alone I have no idea how to even get a job in the film industry(that’s one of the things they don’t teach us). Although they are making The Monkey Wrench Gang into a film, that’s something I’d gladly be a coffee gopher for free…but alas I’ll be in Alaska for two weeks in June and shooting on that starts in May.
I need to get centered again. Hike into the mountains for a good week and forget about everything. Unfortunately that’s only going to put off the stress of not knowing what the hell do to with my life. I’d love to be 18 again. Live in a perpetual summer of cycling, working out, driving around the green hills of northern Pa and western NY. I’d go boating every week and get a tan that would never fade. I’d go out to eat with my dad every couple nights at Mickey’s, and take my dogs for a walk in the 5 acres behind my house while my mom tended to the nearly equivalent sized garden. Unfortunately, that’s not the “real world”. Instead I’m going to have to get a job and pay the bills. I don’t mind having a job, but I refuse to have one just for the sake of working. I’m determined to do work in film, and not just doing 1st ac or camera work for commercials. I’ve thought about doing a documentary, but there’s not a lot of money in it and it takes time which I don’t have much of. Come October of this year I’m going to have to start paying those loans back. Jesus, it sucks being an idealist. I don’t know, I guess I’ll have figure it out, don’t have much of a choice. It’ll be interesting to see if I can combine my idealism with being successful career in the film business. Any advice anyone? Anyway enough of this jibber jabber, I’ve gotta take a dump.
Went down to do some filming to get some stock footage of this, got a few photos in the mean time. There’s alot more but I’m lazy and don’t feel like posting them all. It’s neat to see the old dress, I’ll see if I can post video of the canon or gun shooting in a few days.
Well I just finished watching The Departed, fucking awesome if I must say so myself, and I must. Go and rent it if you can or if you’re like me you can just have your friend burn you a copy of it illegally(disclaimer:of course I’m only kidding, wink). Moving on however, I noticed its now cycling season. I love the background music for cycling on OLN(actually its called Versus now, but I think that’s retarded and still refer to it as OLN). I’m aiming to get out on a good ride this weekend some time, its finally in the high 60’s to low 70’s everyday so the weathers just right. As for mountain biking, well I live at the beach. Although, my school does have riding trails through the wooded area of campus. But I haven’t found much joy in riding through flat, sandy trails. It’s boring, I hate sand, and worst of all its too flat.(heres the link to the trail map at school http://www.sirbikesalot.com/UNCW/UNCWTrailMap4.jpg) Though through sirbikesalot.com I have found a new mtn biking trail over on river road where I do my road biking - surprise, surprise it’s slated for development. Good thing I’m going Saturday morning because I’m pulling up every survey marker I can find. My bike has been acting up on me lately. The left pedal keeps coming loose because of some bolt. The dust cap came loose and fell off and ever since then the nut that holds the pedal to the bike has been coming loose every three or four days. Now they say the dust cap is merely cosmetic, but I’m beginning to think that’s a load of crap. Anyway that’s about all I have to say, but I think everyone should watch this clip, especially if you are around young children or having a bible study…. http://www.glumbert.com/media/roleplay
…photo I took of a bear stealing my grandma’s bird feeder. It was eventually shewed off after destroying roughly 3 bird feeders, all in separate incidents. They didn’t want it to get comfortable eating close to human habitation, although to be fair it was bear habitation a before my grandparents cleared the land to build the house a year before.
Anyway, I was looking through my google analytics tonight and noticed somebody came across my blog through searching “newland nc florida assholes” Well person, proud to have you. Just in case some of you don’t know who newland is, its a company that makes developments. They plan on putting one around here, actually on the road where I do my biking, right next to the river. Leave a little land for the locals, and by locals I don’t mean people.
The old fence post sits lonely in the field
Every night I look at him through the blur of twilight
He’s what’s left of his family
Who’s siblings have succumbed to time and the occasional brushfire
Even he shows the scars of too many years in the field
No reason to take him down now
He’s earned his keep watching over
The cattle in the wilting summer heat
There’s at least a few more years left in him
Even if it’s being a perch for the occasional black crow
At first winters snow, he’ll be there to reassure me
No matter how bad things get
From fire, to snow, to drought he’s never left my side
And when its time for the coyotes to pick through my bones
I’ll be buried where I can never leave his.
I was sitting in my Contemporary Latin American Cinema class today, which I love by the way, and my teacher told us about TV Marti. First let me say that my teacher is part Cuban and travels there when she can(now once every three years thanks to Bush). Anyway, she started telling us about TV Marti. I had never heard of it. Apparently it’s a U.S. broadcasting network that sends U.S. propaganda to Cuba. I believe she said the U.S. spends 14 million a year on this local television quality programing. Apparently beyond the propaganda, it even says things like the tides, and weather so any interested Cubans will know which days are the best to set sail in their homemade rafts for the U.S. Of course all of this is hearsay from my Cuban teacher, who’s specialty is Cuban studies. I’ve visited the site but as one could assume it’s all in Spanish, and I don’t read or speak it beyond the “fuck you Juan, and your mom’s a whore” jargon in the kitchen at work with the mexican crew. The TV and Radio Marti is apparently also very corrupt with funds being misused and misplaced frequently. Yet the U.S. continues to spend money on this program. Recently Bush even signed it into law that they could have a Jet, probably to try and broadcast from the air to get past the signal jamming. Anyway the fact that this stuff exists and no one knows about it is what really blew my mind. My teacher said theres some act signed back in the 1930’s I think, which prevents the U.S. from having to tell the public about it. If you want to watch any of the t.v. you actually have to fill out a form through the freedom of information act to obtain a tape of it, or the internet nowadays. Makes you wonder what else is out there that we are completely ignorant to. All the underhanded shady deals the government pulls with big business, lobbyists, and you scratch my back I’ll scratch yours politics. Another interesting thing is the cuban’s link to the whitehouse page, and our whitehouse page.
Just watched a great documentary about the “winning” of the west…screw buying it though, look for it at the public library… THIS WAY WEST
One more thing, this is an editorial from my hometown newspaper. I don’t know who this guy is, but I’m going to exercise my free speech and go out on a limb here by calling this guy an idiot. Those damn leftist communist Hillary supporters!! She wants war, and to kill your babies! seriously…and Bill O’reilly is a douchebag, can’t defend that.
…it should say the song title and artist in the player, but since it doesn’t it’s sting and allison krauss from the cold mountain soundtrack.
…This was taken a few summers ago at Letchworth State Park which is about an hour from where I’m from in New York. Many southerners might be surprised that New York isn’t all city. Anyway, I was messing around with it and saw that webshots now does a slide show for you, and all you have to do is embed the code, so why not? Enjoy, ohh, I’m the kid with the long hair - damn hippies.
P.S. - Some of the photos were cropped a bit by the slideshow program so if you see half of someone’s head and such, don’t blame it on me. They were framed well before webshots slide thingy majigger.
Well my buddy over at www.apachepilgrims.blogspot.com told me about this news story of these two brothers from Georgia being sentenced for hogtying, taping the mouth shut with duct tape and then if that weren’t enough they smothered a puppy in paint and placing it inside a gas oven cooking it alive. I don’t want to get into any more detail than that right now because to be honest thinking about it makes me a bit sick to my stomach, literally. So if you want to read about it there is apparently a blog that covered the whole thing. Oh, and the two brothers received ten years, 5 for the animal cruelty and 5 for breaking into the community center they used to bake the dog. In crimes like these I honestly approve of an eye for an eye punishment. Normally I’m against the death penalty because it makes no sense to kill someone for killing someone. If it were me I’d lock them in isolation for the rest of their lives. But in this case I’d bake these two sons of bitches and about 325 for a good two hours, just to make sure they were nice and tender by the end, oh and don’t forget to baste.
http://www.cnn.com/2007/POLITICS/02/07/dog.fur/index.html This is the reason I shake my head in disgust every time I see a girl trying to look “cool” with her fake fur collar around her jacket hood. She might as well just slit her own dogs throat. Yank out all the innards. Rip the fur and flesh away from the connective tissue of the muscle and hang it up to dry and tan. Poor doggy. Really I have no room to talk. I don’t kill my own cattle for beef or slaughter my own pigs. The point is that there is a lack of education about “Faux” fur which most of the time is not really fake but often dog fur and other such animals. It’s really the industry’s fault and not the consumer, although we should be educated about it. Were just supposed to be dumb, mindless money spenders(and that we are!).But I mean damn, that fur looks good!
On request of Bitch-Kittie also known as Jessi Pacetti I and other bloggers have been asked to list the six weirdest things about ourselves. So here it goes.
1) I can’t stand hippies, and by hippies I mean those drugged out, dreadlocked, middle class college kids who have nothing better to do than get stoned and talk about “freedom…man..”
2) I hold grudges. I mean really hold grudges.
3) I’ve been told I’m supposedly supposed to be psychic( the ballots still out on that one).
4) I’m a very compassionate person. Why is this weird? Well because I’m one unforgiving bastard.
5) I drink at least two 2-liters of diet mountain dew a day. I heard it puts hair on your chest.
6) I hate being in the same place or situation for too long. At the same time I love a strict schedule. Those two make for some irritation.
I write this under duress. Please visit my friends blog. I warn you it is sarcastic, politically incorrect and sometimes just downright wrong. Please visit www.apachepilgrims.blogspot.com
I was doing some thinking last tonight and it occurred to me why I have had such a love for animals(at least ones I don’t eat) and the environment. Of course I’ve always had a natural affinity for being outdoors, but I think growing up in a very rural area encouraged those inherent feelings. But beyond that I’ve gotten a chance to do something that only people with biology degree get to do, I’ve worked at a zoo. There’s a small zoo not too far from where I live here in Wilmington. They survive essentially on donations and what donations they get are generally not enough to make a dent in the food and supply cost. But I’ve had hands on experience with lions, tigers, bears, wolves, Codimundis, camels(the coolest), buffalo, raccoons and the list goes on and on. I’ve gotten to do something that most people would either only dream of, or never dream of. I think once you get to see these animals face to face and see them for what they really are no one would want to shoot them or use them for fur. That line of thinking got me to the a conclusion that applies not only for the animals but for everything. For example there is genocide in Africa. Normal everyday Americans go about their business and worry about things like groceries, what time their kids have a game, or why the grass won’t stay green even after all the illegal immigrant lawn care. The fact that people in Africa are dying doesn’t cross their mind, or even that we are at WAR, yes we are at WAR! It isn’t until we get to see it first hand, that we can really appreciate either the gravity of the situation or the importance of correcting the wrongs that exist. Film making allows that experience to happen. I can only hope that any of my films will do the least of that, and if they do then I’ve exceeded as a filmmaker, money/awards/fame aside. They don’t matter as long as you can make a positive change in the world through 24fps. I know this might sound like I’m trying to connect the dots that really shouldn’t be connected. But I ask you, what are you doing in that cubicle punching numbers? Making money? For what? To spend so that you have nice stuff when you die? Meanwhile a lot of the world are being hunted or starved or forced to work in deplorable conditions. I wish more people would try to make this world a better place because if we focused less on ourselves and more on others then I think we could make the world a better place. Sounds cheesy I know, but I’ll risk being cheesy if it’ll save one gray wolf or a newborn Sudanese child who will be slaughtered without our help.
I have no claim to originality on this entry. I’ve basically plagiarized a fellow blogger over at Jackburnslives.com so before I put this up I feel I must give credit where credit is due. Essentially I just want you all to read this article. For any Abbey fans this will be nothing new but is a well written, entertaining article. For those of you who haven’t read Abbey it will give you a bit more insight into the man we still talk about today some years after his death. Here’s the article, read it and then go buy an abbey book.
